A Week of Self-indulgence
I don't know about you, but sometimes I feel like I get a bit lost. Not literally, not in a crazy existential crisis, "I-need-to-find-myself" sort of way, but more in a "wow, there's a lot that needs taking care of, I just don't have the time or energy to even think about doing more for myself than merely existing" sort of way.
So every day this week, I will allow a little time for myself, to do whatever I would like to do with it.
Of course, when you get right down to it, this entire blog is one big self-indulgence where I allow myself to do pretty much anything that strikes my fancy, so it may seem a little silly to dedicate a week to doing something that I've already devoted an entire blog to, but indulge me here, people!
Really, I should have done this project in the weeks after Espen was born, when it would suddenly be 5 PM and Nick would come home to find me unshowered, in my pajamas, not having eaten all day because I just couldn't figure out how to take care of a newborn and myself at the same time. I'm doing a lot better almost six months down the road, but could still use some help in finding ways to just be me.
Huh. Maybe I am having a crazy existential crisis?
So every day this week, I will allow a little time for myself, to do whatever I would like to do with it.
Of course, when you get right down to it, this entire blog is one big self-indulgence where I allow myself to do pretty much anything that strikes my fancy, so it may seem a little silly to dedicate a week to doing something that I've already devoted an entire blog to, but indulge me here, people!
Really, I should have done this project in the weeks after Espen was born, when it would suddenly be 5 PM and Nick would come home to find me unshowered, in my pajamas, not having eaten all day because I just couldn't figure out how to take care of a newborn and myself at the same time. I'm doing a lot better almost six months down the road, but could still use some help in finding ways to just be me.
Huh. Maybe I am having a crazy existential crisis?
Taking care of an infant is an all-consuming job. Creating a brand spanking new life that weaves the needs of a baby and the needs of the parents into one, cohesive existence takes some time. Go ahead and have that existential crisis. Your life has been turned upside down, afterall.
ReplyDeleteI assure you, though. Once you get it all down and live with it for a while, you'll look back on the pre-kid life and laugh!
I LOVE this. And I think it shouldn't just be a week. It should be forever! It's so easy to get caught up in your responsibilities and being a mom and a wife and whatever else that you just turn into a mom machine, and that's no fun. Enjoy your self-indulgence :)
ReplyDeleteAnd that picture? ADORABLE.
Completely unrelated, but I love the picture. I love that it's close up and cuts your heads off (thankfully not literally) and is just fun.
ReplyDeleteAlso, I think Espen is TOO CUTE! Really, he isn't just one of those babies where you tell the parents he is cute because it's the nice thing to do. HE REALLY IS!